Curve ball...

These last few weeks I have been trying to figure out what to blog about... I have had a lot going on in my life but really wasn't sure what to share and what to keep to myself.  This is usually my outlet to vent and feel more free... but I am sometimes scared to write how I feel.. in fear that how I feel will predict the future outcomes....

In the last few weeks I have been kinda down and, to be honest, scared to death.  I received some news that could have gone one of two ways... good or bad... Luckily, my fate has decided this is not my time to suffer... 

I was having some health issues that I decided to address.  In the search to find out what was wrong with me, it was discovered that I had a large mass growing inside of my stomach.  An ultrasound that was done to discover one thing found something totally unrelated but definitely worth examining further... 

Now, if you have read my blog, you will know that in the past I had a cyst that ended up being cancerous and a close call... well, to hear the news of a "large mass attached to my abdomen" you can imagine how I may have felt... I had to wait a week to have a CT scan to find out more... The CT scan of course fell on a Friday so I had to wait the weekend to find out my destiny... the wait may have been the hardest part...

FINALLY the results came in and I was blessed with good news.  The cyst, that is the size of a grapefruit, appears to have no connection to my past medical history... PHEWWW!!!  This cyst, although big in size, presents much differently than the one found on my back years ago... The doctor says this is a good sign.... 

Just as a precaution, I am seeing a surgical cancer team in London to get a second opinion and to see how I should proceed... but my gut tells me I am going to be just fine.  

I want to say THANK YOU!!  To all those who knew what I was going through these past few weeks and who were there to support me.  I am not good with words and I have a hard time showing emotion but I appreciate each and every one of you!  THANK YOU!!!!

I also want to say a special shout out to a family friend who may have a much different destiny... she is THE strongest, most beautiful soul I know and I am happy to have had the opportunity to know her.  She is one of a kind and deserves the world.  I ask that anyone who reads this, says a little prayer for her!!  You are beautiful inside and out!  xoxo